This morning I have a heavy heart. I actually cried when I got home. My husband sometimes thinks I'm crazy and get upset about things I shouldn't. But he held me and let me cry it out.
I went to Russells, my local grocery store since Walmart didn't have Lasagna noodles.
A couple was in front of me trying to pay for food with their Food Stamps card but evidently, they had no more money on the card. The clerk said she was sorry. The couple was so embarrassed but the man said he'll go bring it all back. I could tell they wanted to get out of there. But he turned around and went to bring the items back to the shelves. (I think the cashier should have just told to leave it there and an employee would do it)
I asked the cashier how much they owed. She answered $60. I asked if they had ANY money. She said no.
People, my heart just grew heavy because I didn't have all the money. to pay for all of their groceries. My fleeting thought was that card is not going to be refilled in 2 weeks. They may have nothing to eat.
My heart became heavy. I had enough cash for what I needed to buy there and to pay for my prescriptions. But my heart couldn't just let them go without anything. So I paid for my few items and hurried out the store. The man was in the truck ready to take off waiting for the woman. The lady was hurrying to the truck with me a few feet behind the lady. I called her, "MA'AM! I had to call her three times until she realized I was calling her. She turned around. I told her I was so sorry I didn't have more, handing her a $20 bill, but hoped it would help some. She stood there for a second. I guess in shock. I pushed the $20 toward her and again apologized I couldn't give her more. She gently took the $20 and gave me a hug and thanked me with all of her heart (I could tell she was appreciative) and said God Bless you. We parted ways.
On my way home I kept the tears in but my heart was so heavy. I walked in the door of my house and to my husband. As always, he jokingly said you're back? I couldn't answer. He asked me what was wrong. (He knows me so well) I burst out crying and told him what happened. We agreed it's a reminder we don't have much but we have so much more than others.
But then I think it is not fair. I've refrained from talking about this issue on this blog. But I will touch on it today. We have Veterans, Americans and LEGAL immigrants homeless and struggling to feed their families and make ends meet while thousands of illegals crossing our borders ILLEGALLY. They are housed and getting meals, as well as I'm sure medical care. What is wrong with this picture people?
I can't understand why our representatives and AMERICANS think we should be taking care of illegal immigrants!! I say turn them back at the border. I'm sure I'll get good and bad comments regarding this but I really don't care.
Enough of my short rant about the controversial subject.
I don't want it overshadowing my reason for writing this post. I wished I had enough money to buy everything the couple needed. I feel some guilt that I couldn't. I know it is unfounded. But I hope and pray to our loving God that the little I gave her prevented them from being hungry.
I bought a Powerball lottery ticket. I told Hubby if by chance we win I want to find 3-4 families that need help and pay for groceries for them for a year. If I don't win the lottery I guess I'll continue to do what I can for those who cross my path.
Now, its time to go cook my loving husband his lasagna. I dislike cooking lasagna because it's just a long process and has to be on my feet longer than I like. But it's the things I do for love.😄
Until my next blog post,,,,, try to help another stranger in any way you can. God Bless!
P.S. Does anyone have any trouble with the alignment button on here? I have the last one checked but as you can see my lines are not aligned :(
P.S. Does anyone have any trouble with the alignment button on here? I have the last one checked but as you can see my lines are not aligned :(
I agree. Why is it such a crazy concept to suggest that limited resources must be carefully allocated, and we start with our own citizens? But to say anything, one is branded a racist or xenophobe. That is why people think as you but do not speak up.
ReplyDeleteThank you Nawm! I often ask the same question. Lets hope those who think like us goes out to vote election time.
DeleteI appreciate you dropping by and commenting.
We can't save the world and that is hard to process sometimes. But we can help in little ways and those add up to important progress. You did a wonderful thing and I'm sure your gesture will have more positive ramifications than you will ever know. But, I'm sure you do know. You've got a gem of a husband.
ReplyDeleteI know we can't save the world but yes it s hard to process. Thank you for your kind words and wisdom. I see people with signs needing help but you never know. But this couple, you can tell they needed help. Yes, I know. My husband is a rare gem. It took me 43 years and go through two bad marriages to find him. I'm so blessed and HAPPY. Thanks for commenting
DeleteWow, this is speaking volumes to me. About a month ago we were traveling to a team roping in Texas, that my husband was to be in. We stopped somewhere around the Cartage exit off I20 and while he was checking the tires on our horse trailer I went into Loves truck stop to the restroom. When I came out, I saw my husband airing the tires and a man talking to him nonstop. The man was in shorts and a tee and looked like he was just talking to my hubby about the horse, so I thought. I sat in the truck with the door open where I could see them but I didn't hear them. The parking lot and gas pumps were so busy being a Saturday evening. In a few minutes I see my husband stand up, reach in his pocket and pull out his billfold. I could see he was giving him some money. I could see that the man was watching him count out the money as he pulled it out and he could see in my husbands wallet very easily. I've seen him give money to many, many people , helping them for one reason or the other. When the man walked away I watched him and he went straight into the truck stop. I asked my husband how much? He said the man told him he had a fight with his girlfriend and she left him there. It was going to cost exactly 42.00 for a buss ticket to Dallas and that he gave him that amount.. Dallas was 3 hours away. I told him he was scammed. As we drove away and talked more, mostly me doing the talking, I looked on my phone to see where to get the nearest greyhound buss. It was no where near that exit. It was either Dallas, Shreveport, or Marshall. Not there. I felt somewhat angry that the man had scammed my husband. He agreed and I could see that the goodness he did drained from his face. He said , well, its not in his hands but in Gods . I dropped it but still couldn't get that off my mind the rest of out trip. A few days later I was reading my Daily Bread devotional and it talked about feeding the hungry, helping your neighbor. With open heart, leaving it to God. Boy did I feel bad! I prayed about it and apologized to my husband that evening for taking the joy of love, helping a person God may have placed there to ask for help. May or may not . Scam or no scam.... I judged and was not my place to do so. I had to do some soul searching and a lot of praying. I did not look at it the Christian way and I was wrong.
ReplyDeleteYou did the right thing! Hugs!
I've been in situations like that, feeling scammed. I get angry but I pray hard asking God for forgiveness. I truly believe he puts someone in our lives for a reason whether it be a stranger. Your husband did good and is great. It is in our God's hands. You're not a bad person but you see! God talked to you through the devotional and you listened. We all falter sometimes but you're such an awesome person. Thank you for telling me your story. Hugs! God Bless
DeleteYou are a good person. You could have invited them over for lasagna. That would have made you a great person.
ReplyDeletePowdered Toast Man, Thank you sweetie. Yea, you are right but I guess I'll just stay a good person, better than a bad person :)
DeleteBeautiful story I would have done the same thing. I believe our southern souls lead us to be generally genuine human beings . I myself having been homeless and without food makes me even more generous without hesitation. More people should be this way and the world would be more pleasant, perhaps. Thats' only my beliefs I'm human and again this story was great. I'm looking forward to reading more inspirational stories such as this one. God bless
ReplyDeleteThank you for you visiting my page and sharing your story. Thank God you came out of homelessness. Your inspiration.
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