God Give Me Strength

I know I said I wasn't going to waste my blog writing about the negativity my ex brings. But I guess its theraapy to write. Also my readers support me and give me useful advice sometimes. I would love everyone to read my blog but if some don't or don't want to put their two cents, its their choice. I'm okay with that.

About a week or so my ex called me. Here's how it went. Phone rings, my ID shows Idiot(HIS LAST NAME). Yes I DO have that on my phone.  I sigh but curiousity seeps in and answer, "Hello".

He responds, "Hello, how are you?"

I mistakenly ask, "Okay, you?

 He responds with the answer resembling fingernails scratching on a blackboard, "Oh you know,  living in paradise."

I bite tongue and say, "So, what do you want?"

I could tell he was trying to word it nicely so he started, "Do you know about BABYGIRL buying a moped?"

I say, "Yea."

He then asks, "Do you know she is planning on going to Houma to see (Her GIrlfriend)?

I said I did.

He then says, "How do you feel about it?"

I said, "Well, she is 19 and..." DIAL TONE. Every damn time he calls me or we try to talk, he hangs up on me. Lately his wife has been mediator." Poor soul. If he would have allowed me to finish, the rest would have been "I have concerns too."

But, I having faith in all people, have this false hope that it was just a disconnection and he'll call back. Right?

I wait for about a minute and call his phone. His wife answers. I was taken aback which really I shouldn't have been. But anyway, I said I called (Asshole's) phone. She said, "I know but you hit a nerve!"

Patience wore out and I went off, "Me, hit a nerve? I could not say anything. Listen to me." I went over exactly what transpired. She said, "Well I don't know". I heard noise in the background that told me I was on speaker.

She gave me their concerns which equates to mine but as I said, "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? She is out from under our roofs. She is technically an adult." She proceeds to plead their case and I knew exactly where she was coming from but they were like me, had no answer.

WIFE and I had a civil conversation. Before I hung up, I told THEM since we were seperated, every single time (NO EXAGERRATION here) he called me, he hangs up on me and I AM TIRED of it. SHE apologized for him and I DID NOT accept it. I told her I pitied her because she is yet to see the side of him that caused us to divorce.

She shared what their attempts of resolution would be. I just told them to do what they thought needed to be done. I thought as I was hearing what she was proposing that they're going at it the wrong way.  But didn't offer any advice. It was more like uh huh, hmm..We ended the conversation shortly there after.

After I hung up I thought about the whole conversation. We all have legitimate concerns. I worry  and put her in God's hands. She knows my concerns and she knows I am always here for her.

I also thought about IDIOT. I thought why do I keep letting him in my life? There is NO reason to talk to him anymore . She is an adult. I hope when I see his name on my phone again I have the strength to just let it ring.

Do Not Allow Him In My Life.