You are sick but don't feel bad enough to stay in bed. But yet you don't want to do anything. It takes all your strength, even to just to go to the bathroom.
Then sometimes the meds make you feel worse than you already do.
I think one of my meds is putting me in LA LA Land. I hate that feeling. I've taken the med before and it has not done that to me before. Or maybe it is the illness itself. Who knows? I guess after I finish the meds and I don't feel that way anymore, it'll be my answer.
I get depressed and sulk. It doesn't last long, thankfully.
MyHubby apologizes when I don't feel well. I tell him he has no reason to be sorry. I don't blame him for sure. He says he wishes he had healing powers. How sweet? It takes a special kind of man to deal with a person like me and my medical problems.
Tis my life. Always been and I don't see it changing after 50 years.
A friend and I joke agreeing that we should be used to it by now. I don't think you get 'used' to it. I think you learn to accept it in a way and live day to day. I guess "Go with the flow" would describe it.
It does get tiring though.
Sometimes I ask God what is the reason? I always say God has a reason for everything. So why do some of us struggle more than others?
What is the purpose of a life of medical woes? What is it suppose to teach me? Hopefully, he'll tell me when he takes me to his home.
People say I am an inspiration with everything I've gone through. I appreciate that so very much. However, think about it. Being an inspiration because I fight through whatever comes at me medically? Most people do the same thing.
I know many people are worse off than me. And I feel for them.
A priest told me once that my 'suffering' on earth is my journey to eternal bliss when God calls me home. I sure as hell hope so. Because sometimes I feel like I am in Hell.
Anyway...enough of that. On to more pleasant things....
An awesome blogger I follow, Just Thoughts on a Blog, has shared.a way to find other blogs to read and at the same time share your blog.
If you click the tab above "Linking Your Blog" and fill out the short and sweet form, your Blog will be added to the list, I hope. I have yet to have anyone do it on mine. When one of my followers click the link they will see the list of blogs they can visit by just clicking the link.
I think it is a cool idea.
I know I haven't been the most consistent blogger. I noticed many who I follow are not either. There have been countless times I have sat here and started a post but did not finish. I have 98 unfinished drafts. I know! Crazy!
But I do read many of your blogs regularly and comment occasionally.
I noticed some bloggers have had their blogs turn into money-making blogs. I guess they are more dedicated to blogging than I am and more interesting. I know some have 1000s of followers. Which I think is pretty cool for them.
I started this blog thinking of it as sorta like a diary. I also wanted to share my life to show that although I have a 'disability' and medical challenges I am just like all of you who don't have to deal with such things.
I do appreciate my followers and those who drop by to read my blog. Come back again!!