Sunday, October 31, 2010

Dreams of Discipline and Sand in a Clock

This morning my dream was another off the wall dreams.

There were my sister, Mel, Randal, Layla, Cale, my niece's ex-boyfriend and myself.

Cale was on the telephone. We were all trying to have a turn in the bathroom. There were two bathrooms. So I was telling them the order that we should go in one bathroom. Why didn't we go to both bathrooms, I have no idea. Layla was about six and was whiny. In the meantime I was trying to fix an alarm clock. Cale had told me to put some sand in it.So I had taken it apart and as I was placing the sand in the back of the clock. At one time while doing so I lifting my hand and spaghetti noodles dropped it and there was glue stuck. So I grabbed some water to wash my hands and accidentally poured it into the clock.

During that time, Cale called me and said, "Tell Layla if she doesn't behave to tell her if she does not behave, I am going to talk to her." Layla became really upset and cried.


Clock-My alarm clock evidently bit the dust because it keeps turning 2 hours ahead of the actual time. It is about 30 years old. Then I have a wall clock my best friend gave me when my ex and I moved into our new house which was 18 years ago also has been useless because it's lost time. I put in new batteries and it does the same thing.

Sand: Have no clue.

Cale talking to Layla: I have no idea. We haven't seen Cale in ages. He's never talked stern to any of us.

Dropping Water: I am always dropping something.

Line up for the bathroom: Again, I have no idea. Maybe because I had to use the restroom??

I woke up sleepy. I definitely did not get enough sleep.

Saturday, October 30, 2010


I've always had weird dreams. I try to understand them because they are suppose to have some meaning.  I started documenting what  I remember on my LJ. So I figured I'll write them here too. Who knows? Maybe someone can give me an explanation of the meaning of them that I can agree with. I've read several books and articles giving the meaning of dreams but I either can't find my theme of my dream or if I do find something, I feel it does not pertain to me.

 The themes of my dreams usually stay constant. It's either, I lost my car, I can't find my daughter, Layla, Layla is always younger or I am at school or college and I miss the class.

When my ex and I were separated I always dreamed of him taking Layla or coming after me trying to kill me. Those dreams were understanding because he and I had a bad marriage for the last 10 years (We were married for 24). He had a temper and mentally abused us. He threatened he would win Layla during custody battle, which he didn't.

My dreams are sometimes jumbled or like a slide show without any ending. One dream stops abruptly and the other starts.

Last night I dreamed that I walked 15 miles (Anyone who knows me there would be no way I could walk 15 miles) and met up with my friend, Bee. It was getting ready to rain so she told me to get in her car. She had to do some errands and we ended up what seemed like a auto parts shop. Another friend, Bonnie was there. Bee and Bonnie were talking and then Bee and I left. Bee asked if I wanted her to drive me home. I told her I didn't want her to go out o her way. Then I said wait let me see where Layla is. So I called Layla, she would answer but we would get disconnected. Finally, we stayed connected until we were finished. I asked where she was and I said on the other side of Lewis Street. She asked me what I was doing there. I told her I was walking. I told her to come get me. Bee  interrupted and said she would bring me home..that dream ended and then another one began.

The next dream was that I was sick and going to the doctor. Layla was driving and I was giving her directions. When we got to a certain point, everything changed. It was like more buildings and more streets. We kept meeting dead ends. So I got in the car and went the opposite direction and we finally found it. But it was 15 minutes after closing time and my doctor had left. Layla started demanding workers to find me a doctor. My regular doctor's partner shows up and asks what's wrong.  I started telling him and then the dream ended and blended into the next dream.

  The whole team was missing perfectly thrown balls. The announcer was a tall dude standing by our dugout. He looked familiar but I can't place him. Anyway, he had the headset on and calling the plays and giving statistics. However, there were was no paper or computer screens anywhere for him to read from. I thought, "Wow, he is just saying these statistics and information out of his head." I also saw tacos in that dream but I don't remember exactly what it was about.I finally woke up.

I wake up tired and Randal, my domestic partner who I adore, says no wonder I'm tired, I am always walking or running. He says I need to dream of something calm like the beach. Yea, right..I only wish.

This IS My Life!

Friday, October 29, 2010

My Cajun Life

Well here I am, yet another blog. I'm not sure what I want the theme to be so let us just say whatever I feel like writing I'll write. Any comments or constructive criticism are welcomed.

This past week I started taking a continuing education class at the local university. A classmate suggested to try this site so here I am.

Ever since I learned to write, I've written. I've written lists, journals, etc. . I regret throwing out journals but what can I say?

When I was married, I felt so unloved and unwanted I became frustrated. I started writing some erotica. }BLUSH" When I am depressed or hurt I write poems.

I want to write something inspirational in the form of a short story. I want to write something symbolizing happiness! I am happy now so I need to drag it out of me!

 I've dabbled with a short story for ages but can't get it together. (One reason why I started the CE glass.) I always wanted to write my daughter a story of our lives, but events just destroyed that thought for a while. I've also considered writing about my trials and tribulations of having cerebral palsy. It's like I dab then I stop.

So here I am. I'm new to the site so bear with me if I get lost :).